Feeling overwhelmed and looking for your work-life balance?

A lot of us are looking to find that sweet spot in life, where we've found the balance between our work lives and our home lives. But how do we know when we've gotten there? Is it a feeling? Is it happiness? Maybe a sense of ease?

Many of us have a hard time defining exactly what we're searching for when it comes to the perfect work-life balance. Generally, it’s a feeling that something's off and we know we can't continue on the same path for much longer.

The definition for work-life balance is personal and it can be affected by multiple factors like personalities, responsibilities, timing, and situation. That's why it's important to know which step you're on when discovering your unique work-life balance.

With our 11 step process to transform your life, you'll find a deeper understanding of your stuckness and how it keeps you from getting what you want. You will then discover how to create your own path towards the work-life balance that makes the most sense for you.

If you're sick of...

• feeling torn or guilty about how you spend your time between work and your personal life

• thinking you're not doing enough compared to others 

• feeling overwhelmed, or constantly on the edge of burnout, and feeling like you don’t have much to show for it

• constantly believing that you’re not good enough

…then you need these steps!

If you would like more guidance on how to apply our 11 steps to discovering your work-life balance, join us for our FREE live q+a session on February 21st at 8pm ET | 5pm PT.  During this time, Ming-Wai and Ming-Cee will walk you through understanding how to apply the 11 steps to your own life.

All you have to do is sign up and show up for yourself. We got you. You got you. See you there!

PS: if you missed our monthly lifestyle newsletter with easy tools on how to discover your work-life balance, check it out here.

How to Discover Your Work-Life Balance

Welcome to the monthly ming+ming lifestyle newsletter! Each month, we'll be covering topics we’ve struggled with along our personal growth journeys and how we’ve been able to find deeper understanding of our challenges, shift our perspectives, and the tools and tips that help us along the way. We’ll share ways to surround yourself with inspiration as you continue doing the hard work, how to grow your self love, and how to be creative with your solutions so it fits your personal lifestyle.

At ming+ming, we want to change the tone of healing. We want others to know that though the journey is incredibly tough, it’s completely achievable. It might not always look pretty getting there, but the transformation is always worth it. We’ll break down the growing pains that accompany you along the way and we’ll guide you step by step on how to discover your own solutions. Because we believe that everyone deserves to enjoy the life they work so hard to create.

This month's topic:
How to Discover Your Work-Life Balance.

Discovering your work life balance has everything to do with you.  

• What’s your definition of work life balance? 

• Do you believe it exists?  If not, why?  If so, why?  

• How do you get there? 

• What’s keeping you stuck?

If we don’t know what we want, then we won’t know which direction we should step in. When we talk about a growth journey, this is what we are referring to.  Just to get us pointed in a certain direction takes time, money, and energy. However, these are critical steps where we set the foundation for our future success.

Find out what step you're on by taking our 5-minute quiz.

Focus on the work-life balance aspect of your life when answering the questions. Then use the tools below to take the next step in your personal growth journey.

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One last thing.

Our wonderful Yoga for Inner Core teacher Justyna shared her inspiration for class this month from this article from Ekhart Yoga: Less stress – moving beyond work life balance.

With our weekly newsletters, we'll help you navigate your healing journey so it’s less confusing, less overwhelming, and more accessible. 

6 things to know before quitting your 2023 resolution

We’ve compiled our top 6 tips to shift your mindset so you can make your 2023 resolution stick.

It’s the beginning of a new year and if you're like most of us, you’ve set intentions to live a healthier lifestyle by analyzing what you’d like to change in your life. Then, per usual, life gets in the way, old patterns persist, and we find reasons to quit before we’ve really even begun.

Like we said last week, our goal is to change the tone of healing so we thought we would share some tips to help you create realistic resolutions that will lead to lasting change. (If you missed last week’s newsletter, read it here)

If you’ve struggled to stick with new year’s resolutions in the past, then the first thing you need to do is shift your perspectives on how to approach change.

Shifting your thinking will influence how to change your habits… for good.  If you first focus on changing your mindset, then your actions will naturally align with less energy and greater success. It’s this shift that allows you to discover the deeper meaning, address the root cause, and truly allow yourself to change.

1. Change Takes Time.
We live in a time when we are conditioned to expect instant gratification. Real sustainable change will not happen overnight, nor should it. There is value to this process. Give yourself permission to cultivate patience when it comes to change. Struggling to find patience with change?

Read This Post

2. Healing is not sexy.  
Looking good on the outside, despite how you feel on the inside, will not give you long-term results. Hiding toxic behavior behind materialistic wealth isn’t a sustainable healing practice. Superficial wellness is not the answer to your struggles.  It’s hard work to discover real, sustainable change and it’s not going to be sexy, but the value of feeling confident in your true self and honoring your needs IS the new sexy.  And because it’s not superficial, it will not dull or fade and more importantly, no one can take it away from you. Struggling with finding your inner sexy?

 Read This Post

3. You can be balanced and imbalanced at the same time.
We like to think in extremes (right or wrong, black or white) but in reality, the answers to life are not one or the other -  it's usually something in between or a combination of truths. This can be really confusing when we’re aiming to do things “right." Take a moment to recognize that you are an amazing person, but there are aspects of your life that you’re still working on. Struggling with feeling overwhelmed on where to start?

 Read This Post

4. Don’t be a shit talker.
The way we talk to ourselves matters greatly and our inner monologue can be brutal sometimes. The truth is that our chances of reaching our goals without believing in our abilities, cheering ourselves on, or giving ourselves the permission to “fail” and trying again, will ultimately sabotage any chance of success. We need to learn to be our own biggest cheerleader. Struggling with shit talking yourself?

Read This Post

5. Your answer lies within.

If we don't know what we want or why we want it, it’s unlikely we’ll be able to achieve it. We need to really get to know ourselves. We need to learn to like ourselves and believe we are worthy of change. The best way to connect with yourself is by being in an environment you feel comfortable in, supported by others who connect with your journey, in a space that is quiet and calming.

ming+ming classes are designed to support you exactly here you are. Join our yoga and meditation classes to start connecting with your true self.

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6. Show up for yourself.
Our first actionable step towards change was to show up for ourselves consistently. Creating the habit of doing something for ourselves is the first pattern we had to build. We had convinced ourselves that we should be serving others before considering our own needs. This mindset made us feel lost, unhappy, and confused because we thought we were doing everything “right.”  The reason we only sell membership packages is because it’s designed to make it easy to show up for yourself consistently. If there is only one commitment you make this year, we can guarantee you'll see real changes in your life by just consistently showing up for yourself.

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tools for discover + repeat

When we were feeling the most confused and out of control in our lives, it was because we were lost on how to help ourselves. We knew we were desperately seeking change but we were too afraid of the “what ifs'' to try something different. So instead, we just kept waiting for things to change on their own. As you’d suspect, we were waiting for a while until we were forced to start making changes out of desperation.  
 

When we look back at our healing journeys thus far, we know the struggles it took us just to get started. Though painful and uncomfortable, in retrospect, we can see how far we’ve grown and now we value the knowledge we’ve gained. What we have discovered through our own journeys is when life gets overwhelming and you’re searching for answers, the first step is to go inside.

We continue to discover that as we find more ways to heal, grow and support our journeys, it allows us to get more in touch with who we are. We now know that it’s impossible to like ourselves if we don’t know ourselves. We can’t be ourselves if we don’t like ourselves. And we definitely can't tell someone else what we need if we don’t know what we need ourselves.

The more we discover who we are and get deeper in touch with our needs, the more we heal. The simple act of showing up to ming+ming weekly classes is a great place to start and has done wonders for us. It’s the perfect space to discover more of ourselves. 
 

The discovery of self and the deeper meaning of our struggles, allow us to heal and make decisions based on what we really need. These are the tools that have helped us discover ourselves a little deeper so we could start to make our own changes.

With love,

Ming-Wai + Ming-Cee

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Ming-Wai's Tools

weekly guidance with my oracle cards

I like to pull a card to give me guidance and insight into what will support me in the week ahead. Sometimes it's obvious why I get a card and sometimes it can be really confusing at first. Taking a few minutes to journal about the card and how it can guide me is the pause I need to reflect on my current situation from a new perspective and helps me move forward with more confidence.

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the mists of avalon helped me on my personal growth journey

What hooked me was following the classic knight in shining armor story from the female characters' perspective. I could really related to the main character, Morgaine, and her fears and uncertainty of moving forward through the twists and turns of life.

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Ming-Cee's Tools

this podcast helped my relationships

This podcast really gave me a deeper understanding as to why I live my life this way and why I have trouble setting healthy boundaries for myself. This podcast also walked me through how to identify a Narcissist and how I can determine if I'm dealing with one in my life. It gave me a great shift in my perspective and how to approach relationships in the future.

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this documentary redefined therapy for me

You all know by now we love our tools, and this documentary is filled with them. In the documentary Jonah Hill and his therapist Paul Stutz discuss in detail the tools Stutz has created to help us process life. He creates visualizations on notecards to give further the understanding of the tools, how you use it and why it helps. He even guarantees that if you do what he tells you to, you will feel better.

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tools for maintain + preserve

 We are quick to bend backwards for others.

We over-commit as a way to prove our loyalty.

We push through long hours and ignore signals from our bodies to sustain our status.

However, if you’ve been following along with us, you know by now it’s not without a cost.

When we prioritize others' needs at the expense of our own, we lose touch with ourselves. And if this becomes a habit, then we lose our ability to know how to support our needs. We know,because we’ve been there.

Healing is the art of taking care of ourselves. Discovering the tools that work for our unique situations and using them in a way to create consistency is an artform. What to use and how to use it is really personal since we are the only ones who truly know what we need.

And when we put the energy, time and money into supporting our needs, we give ourselves the loving message that we are worth it. It’s in the process, the struggle and the perseverance, of discovering how to take care of ourselves that allows us to reconnect with who we are and to redefine our own value.

Below are some tools we’ve discovered that have helped us maintain + preserve our health so we can enjoy the life we work so hard to create.

With love,

Ming-Wai + Ming-Cee
 

this podcast redefined addiction for me

I'll be honest - I had never heard of Whitney Cummings before my husband forwarded me this podcast but I'm sure I'll see her everywhere now (isn't it weird how that happens?). So no matter if you like her work or not, this is worth a listen.

Almost two years ago, I wrote a blog explaining how my problems aren't "real" problems. It started like this:

“Sometimes I feel like an addict but instead of alcohol or substances, I’m addicted to exceeding expectations and external validation. However, there’s no 12-step program to take your life from people-pleasing super productive to true-self pleasing f*ck what everyone thinks. And that’s where the problem lies because for years I’ve been thinking my problems aren’t real problems.”

But from this podcast, I discovered that there IS a 12-step program for people-pleasers! It's a support group for codependence that she's involved with. Who knew?

I need to warn you that this is a long podcast - it took me several days to finish it - but they cover a lot and really shifted my perspective on the definition of addiction and how it's not necessarily bad and how it could really be our super power. Another revelation was that you can be confident but have low self-esteem (and how confusing that is). And another great take-away for me was the reminder of the power of forgiveness.

This was a great reminder that we're always working on ourselves and moving forward in our own way, with our own tools, and with a bit of humor.

With love,

Ming-Wai

my mini-meditation habit

I have to be honest - I'm terrible at making time to meditate. I tried to set a reminder on my phone or put it on my calendar, but those tricks were short-lived. What works for me is mini-meditations that I couple with things that I have to do anyway.

For instance, doing deep breaths and letting my mind wander while taking my evening shower. I've also stopped listening to the radio in the car on my commute into work. Or when I walk the dogs, I leave my phone and earbuds at home so I'm more present in the moment. I count these as my mini-meditations and they are now a habit I don't want to break.

I used to be a chronic multi-tasker with everything I did, like folding laundry and watching TV, going on a walk at lunch while catching up on my podcasts, or reading a paper for work while on the treadmill. I felt so productive! What I didn't realize at the time was that all this "productivity" was like running on a hamster wheel. I was putting all this energy into getting stuff done but then never feeling like I was going anywhere, which eventually lead me to burnout.

Don't get me wrong, I do still multi-task but now I intentionally find a little time in my day to put my productivity on pause. And it is in these quiet moments when I am most present with my body and my mind that I get beautiful realizations and creative ideas.

With love,

Ming-Wai

I've been practicing yoga since I was a teenager - mostly at the gym off-and-on for many years - and I was just doing it for exercise, stretching, and a little meditation. I didn't know why it made my body feel good (and I didn't really care, to be honest) but I kept coming back to yoga because it was like pushing a reset button on life and I always felt better afterwards.

About five years ago, I started going regularly to a yoga studio in my town and the practice of showing up every week was the beginning of a healthy shift in my life. What I eventually learned while doing my yoga teacher training is that yoga is more than stretching, breathing, and trying to do a handstand. The principles of yoga can be applied to so many aspects of my life.

The book Living Your Yoga by Judith Lasater is a quick and easy read and showed me that I didn't have to go to a yoga retreat in order to deepen my relationship with my true self. When I am struggling to show up to my mat in order to maintain + preserve the benefits of my practice, this book gives me simple suggestions on and off the mat to bring me back to a mindset of balance. It touches on topics like faith, control, fear, and greed that makes me more conscious of how I'm reacting to my surroundings. And it reminds me that even when things are going well and I don't feel like I "need" to do my yoga practice, there is still a benefit to showing up for myself on and off the mat.

With love,

Ming-Wai

how I learned to love orthotics

Ever since I can remember, our physical therapist mother has put emphasis on taking care of our feet. Our feet are what supports the rest of our bodies day in and day out. Neck pain, back pain, headaches and other aches can all stem from not giving our feet the support they need.

Though it took persistent nagging from our mother, I now see the immense benefits of taking care of how my body feels when I’m on my feet. From the ego hit I took when deciding I couldn’t wear high heels anymore to the cost and annoyance of purchasing orthotics for every shoe I own, this part of my journey has been a real struggle (and sometimes continues to be).

The best quality orthotic I’ve invested into is Foot Karma. The orthotics have been designed and created by Pediatrist Eric Hubbard and his wife Millie Hubbard, RN, BSN and Public Health Nurse. These orthotics were created out of necessity, to provide their patients an orthotic that was comfortable and one they would actually wear. They even have orthotics that will fit into high heels for those of you who are not willing to give up those long legs quite yet. I appreciate that “Take care of your feet now so they can take care of you later” is written front and center on their packaging. Check them out: https://footkarma.com/

If you are looking for less expensive options you can try Dr. Scholl’s custom fit orthotics. There are kiosks that will determine which Dr. Scholl’s orthotics will best support your needs. Find a kiosk here.

And when in doubt, listen to your body. Going to see a Podiatrist for additional information and support what’s best for you.

With love, Ming-Cee

retraining my body with Rosen

My first in-person Rosen class was at the Napa Senior Center February 2020. Shortly after, the world shut down due to the pandemic. Classes transitioned online and that’s where I’ve been taking my Rosen class ever since.

I’ve lived most of my life pushing through my discomforts (read about it on my blog here). I’ve been forcing my body to perform and creating a lot of tension. But a lifetime of harsh demands finally caught up to me, leaving me exhausted with a chronically aching body. Rosen movement helps me to stop reinforcing old habits of misusing my body. Since I didn’t know any better, I needed to retrain myself from the foundation up. And even though my first class was held at the senior center, Rosen movement is for all ages.

Rosen Method Movement is a system of simple, gentle, range-of-motion movements that encourage students to move the way their bodies are designed. Rosen classes are also paired with music allowing the body to move with awareness to a certain rhythm. These classes are simple, practical and have given me hope for a more enjoyable future.

Along with Rosen Method Movement there is Rosen Method Bodywork. To discover more about Rosen Method check out the webpage at rosenmethod.com

And if you would like to join me via Zoom at 9:30am pacific on Mondays for Rosen Method Movement class, please reach out and I’ll send you information on how to sign up.

With love,

Ming-Cee

finding support with anti-fatigue mats

This tool is another recommendation from our physical therapist mother. She has been trying to shift our perspectives on giving our bodies the support they need now so we may experience longevity of the highest quality later. She has always said that we don’t have to wait for our bodies to scream at us in pain before we provide them with a tool to support our daily demands. It's finally sinking in, mom!

As a stay-at-home mom to young children and as someone who enjoys cooking as a way of showing her love, I’m in the kitchen a lot. From daily chores like doing the dishes to preparing weekly meals, I find myself standing on our hard tile floors often. And though I’ve used anti-fatigue mats before and know the benefits it provides my body, when I redid my kitchen I was stuck in a world of vanity over comfort. Luckily I found an anti-fatigue mat that supports my needs and looks great! The Standing Matt from House of Noa delivers the best of both worlds.

With love,

Ming-Cee

Hi, I’m Ming-Cee and I workout at the senior center

“...and a mug for tea,” the description read. It randomly caught my attention as I was looking up activities for my kids in our city’s Parks & Recreation catalog.

I read the class description outloud to my husband and he looked at me with concern. I knew he’d been watching me morph into a dull and frail version of myself. I told him that I thought it was a sign and enrolled myself for “Exploring the Deep Spine, Moving from Your Core.”

I was in the very early stages of my healing journey. I knew I couldn’t stay in bed for the majority of my day anymore. I needed to get moving and out of the house. I was stuck in the mindset that spending money on myself was a scarce privilege so the class description and the price point was too perfect to ignore.

To be honest, I thought it was going to be a slow moving barre class, one that would focus on my core muscles. I really didn’t expect the class to be any different than any other I’d taken at a community center… not even when I pulled into the parking lot of the Senior Center.

When I walked in and others began to gather, I was approached by a woman who smiled with her entire body and immediately made me feel warm. She introduces herself as the instructor, then proceeds to say “you might have noticed that you’re significantly younger than the others.”

It was hard not to notice.

She asked about myself and told me a bit about the class I was about to take. She then says “you are exactly where you are supposed to be and I am so happy you are here.”

Tears immediately began to well up in my eyes. Because when you're lost and scared, those are the best words you could hear from someone else. It turns out I would cry 3 more times by the end and I knew I had found my people.

Never had I been with a group of individuals who knew what it felt like to live in chronic pain, tired and worn down. I felt seen and understood immediately. It was quite the contrast from always pretending to look like a healthy 37 year old. I found a spark of hope when a woman, a full generation ahead of me, declared “I wish I had found this class when I was your age.” I could see the honesty in her eyes, and perhaps, even a bit of jealousy. It gave me the first positive shift in my mindset.

I CAN help myself and it WON’T be all for nothing. I accepted that I’d have to sacrifice to go down the long and demanding road up ahead, but I decided to give myself this gift. It was a gift to invest one hour a week with my people. And I had never thought about it that way before, until now.

At that time, I was constantly overwhelmed with feelings of hopelessness. Always throwing energy towards damage control and never for preservation. I had no energy left to take care of myself. I spent my money to maintain my image instead of maintaining my health. And that’s how I found myself working out at the senior center at age 37.

This wonderful class is called Rosen. Rosen movement breaks down how to use our bodies correctly. Our demanding world doesn't allow us to slow down enough to realize we don’t always need to be pushing. From standing up straight to running a marathon, our bodies can perform without brash demands. We just need to be aware of our bodies, how they naturally work, and to be kind enough to give them what they need.

Though initially working out with retirees was a swift kick to the ego, it only took a few vulnerable words, some warm touches and empathetic eyes to not care how it looked anymore. I was where I needed to be, at the appropriate level – it was the right next step for me.

My newfound community may have weathered hands and worn souls, but they remind me that today’s investments will be worth more to me as the years go by. And though our current personal growth journey may seem uncomfortable, daunting and overwhelming, investing in our health now allows us to preserve the quality of years we have left.

“In the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years.”

–Abraham Lincoln

With love,

Ming-Cee

check in with my community

Before the pandemic, the idea of finding an honest and open online community was not something I was looking for (nor did I have time for). I checked in with my friends at happy hour, brunch, work, and through texts and phone calls. I felt like I didn't have enough time to add another community to my schedule and I didn't think I needed one.

But now that I've been checking in with my community weekly for over 2 years during our ming+ming meditation classes, I really feel the benefit of this one hour per week. Although I'm considered the "teacher" of the class, what I'm actually doing is holding space for our community to check-in and I also feel like a participant in the community.

We share when things are good but we usually share our stories when things are frustrating, annoying, and depressing. This check-in can be uncomfortable but every week we are met with love, understanding, and support in our ming+ming community. And ultimately, each of us keeps showing up, every week, checking-in and recognizing the ebb and flow of our progress moving forward.

Today, I can't imagine where I would be without my community. I started out teaching them but ultimately, they are the ones teaching me too.

With love,

Ming-Wai

Join us every Thursday at 8pm eastern for ming+ming meditation. I'd love to see you!

Hi, I'm Laurie and here's my story

When I found the ming+ming classes, I was desperate to get back to my yoga practice. I had taken up Ashtanga yoga to rebuild muscle mass and bone density after a bout of degenerative hyperthyroidism. I was doing yoga six days a week and feeling pretty damn good about myself, not realizing that the underlying connective tissue disorder was allowing my body to stretch and flex, but not really repairing itself in the process.

My life was hectic. We had chosen a private school for our son across town and sat in traffic for hours a day. My small business was a lot of work with little return. I had a fall down the stairs that seemed all right at first, but as I continued my demanding yoga practice, I realized that the damage was more severe.

“Power through,” I thought to myself. Some of my yoga teachers had done their practice through the ninth month of their pregnancies! I had a friend who sprained her wrist who just continued doing her yoga series on her knuckles. “You can do this – just keep going.” I wasn’t listening to my body. At all. All the things that I let go of when I healed my thyroid started trickling back in. Sugar, chocolate, caffeine, alcohol. I was surviving, but my hip was a reminder that things were not well.

I went to acupuncture, physical therapy, and did Reiki for my hip. I even started Pilates with a personal trainer. After a year and a half, I could walk normally but every attempt at yoga ended in sprains. I sprained my elbow, my wrist, my ankle, my knee, and so on.

I missed my yoga. For me, yoga is meditation in motion. It was the only time I allowed myself to be still. My refuge in a crazy world. My connection to the Divine.

When the “lockdown” of COVID happened, it gave me the opportunity to stop. Stop driving. Stop socializing. Stop forcing myself into poses just because the muscular yoga instructor could do it -- or that guy on the mat next to me who’s seventy.

I’m different. I should not have to compete with them but I couldn’t seem to turn off the noise that told me otherwise.

Ming-Wai was one of my bridesmaids so of course I tried her class to show my support. It was online and seemed easy to fit into my schedule as I desperately needed to get back into yoga. As life would have it, the driving to private school turned into homeschool. I was looking for refuge so I came to two yoga classes a week. Eventually, I was able to move my hip after a while and started experiencing the unexpected benefits of taking yoga class in the comfort of my own home. I had all the props I wanted with no one critiquing my poses–especially myself. I just did what felt right to my body at that time. And each time it was different.

I didn’t expect my ming+ming yoga experience to be this powerful, but it was.

And then I joined the meditation class. We learned about our negative reels, which is the voice inside that says “power up!” when your body is powering down. I learned about focus and what it means to let go of everything – including your thoughts. I learned about others’ struggles and wins and shared my own.

This community is why ming+ming classes and workshops are so successful for me. It’s not just yoga, it’s yoga with friends. It’s not just meditation, it’s being vulnerable in a group of people who care about you and who cheer on your effort. I’m literally the walking proof that they work. I don’t know if I would have made this change in my life without them.

Much love.

Laurie

someday

If we stay too long in our dreams of the future, we can get lost longing for what we don’t have or what we’re still missing. This quickly triggers our negative reel, which convinces us that we are not good enough and that we should be here and not there. “Someday” can’t seem to come soon enough because it’s not until then that things will have finally changed.

This mindset can create a space where we are stuck waiting for someday to come. We plan for a time where everything will be different. But until then we will have to find ways to cope, manage the discomfort, strategize to distract and numb the present moment, until that someday finally gets here.

We may not recognize that these coping strategies created to get us through our chaotic days is also what's keeping us from creating the change we’ve been waiting for. For most of us, it’s easier to wait for external circumstances to change instead of actively creating the change we want for our future.

But if we shift from wishing for a better future to focusing on making small changes in the present, then we will someday recognize that it’s a process to get to our dreams. It’s the gradual layering of skills developed over time and discovering resilience that builds the bridge to take us over the rainbow.

The decisions we make in the present moment allows us to gradually grow in the direction we’ve been gazing. And it’s only after taking one small step after another that we can reflect on the path that we’ve created. It’s a process and it takes time.

So we must not get stuck wishing upon a star so we can someday wake up where the clouds are far behind us. Instead, we must focus on what we want to build for ourselves and how we are going to build it. Because if we focus on the process to reach our goals, it will allow us to discover our true value, our self worth, and the vastness of our capabilities along the way.

The value of taking the time to reflect on where we’ve been is that it reminds us that we were once stuck wishing for a better future instead of taking the steps to create one. And though the progression of our personal growth journeys continues to be slow, full of hard work and challenges, we are no longer waiting for “someday” because we can now see that we are already on the path heading over the rainbow.

With love,

Ming-Wai + Ming-Cee

better isn't "right"

At ming+ming, our goal isn’t to become a better version of ourselves, it’s to grow into a richer version of ourselves.

As we were beautifully reminded by our yoga instructor Justyna, it’s important to take the time to embrace exactly who we are right now, exactly where we are on our personal growth journeys. Because when we tell ourselves that we are trying to create habits to make ourselves “better,” this implies that there is something wrong with us.

We have both been working on ourselves, but more specifically we have been working on shifting our perspectives of how we view ourselves and how we speak to ourselves. We’ve realized that making small adjustments to our internal dialogue can make a significant impact on the quality of our journeys. And as we reflect back, it’s been one of our hardest challenges (and to be honest, we’re still working on it) because sometimes we aren’t sure if we always believe what we tell ourselves.

Something that helps to remind us of our self worth is a quote from Rabbi Mordecai Finley: “There’s nothing wrong with you. You’ve just discovered your work.”

Work. That’s exactly what it is. Perhaps that’s what deters so many of us from doing it. If we want to grow as individuals, it will take work, it will take extra energy, and it will take time. It will feel uncomfortable and we will feel like quitting at some point. We will try something new only to learn that it didn’t provide us with the results we hoped for. It’s not only work, but it’s hard work.

As we look down the road of our personal growth journeys, we can see the potential difficulties and challenges that we will face ahead, and that fear alone can be so powerful it stops us in our tracks. But we now know that growth comes from overcoming obstacles and finding the strength to keep challenging ourselves to move forward. This is how we grow into deeper, richer versions of ourselves, not a “better” one.

We are now more comfortable with being uncomfortable, even though it can still suck. We accept the unexpected because we now believe in our ability to solve our own problems, even though it’s frustrating and inconvenient. We have developed more courage to try new things in spite of the fear since we know that self discovery comes from experiencing life even when we’d rather feel safe in our familiar spaces.

It takes doing the work to grow. And for us, growing is the goal. And though we may slip back into the mindset that we are trying to better ourselves, shifting our perspective and changing even a single word (healthier, stronger…) can make the journey less strenuous. Growing into a deeper and richer version of ourselves allows us to still make mistakes and face failure despite our efforts without our negative reels reminding us that we aren’t good enough.

We believe it’s from our mistakes and failures that we learn what our likes and dislikes are, and discover what works and what doesn’t. It allows us to connect with others over shared experiences, and lessens our judgment that perpetuates our limiting beliefs. Mistakes and failures are what allows us to realize that doing what’s “right” all the time doesn’t make us better, it just makes us stuck believing that better is always “right”.

If you were to shift just one perspective, we encourage you to pause long enough to redefine your goal. If your goal implies that you need to improve because there is something wrong with you, then you should expect your growth journey to be riddled with self doubt and accompanied by a loud negative reel. But if you can work on truly believing that there is nothing wrong with you and you’ve just discovered your work, then we can guarantee your travels will be more enjoyable despite the difficult terrain.

ming+ming makes the work less harsh by eliminating the confusion on where to start or which tools to try, and feeling overwhelmed when you think you are all alone on this journey.

Start by taking one of our classes to find the time to pause long enough to ask yourself (and actually hear the answer to): “What is my goal?”

With love,

Ming-Wai + Ming-Cee

Hi, I'm Ming-Cee and I wanted change without changing

“Go on a hike,” they say. “Make Sundays your meal prep day,” “When people hurt you, they’re just hurting themselves.”

All great advice for someone depressed, hurt, and scared for their future. I just didn’t know how any of these suggestions pertained to me.

I barely had the energy to get out of bed and do the dishes, let alone go on a hike. How are you supposed to create healthier habits that give you more energy when you have no energy to begin with? This was me.

There was even a point in my life where I would think about what I would wish for if I came across a genie in a lamp and he granted me three wishes. Yes, desperation makes you look for answers in all places. I desperately wanted things to change immediately with a flick of a wrist.

But as you would suspect, I was waiting for a long time and I never did find that magical lamp. I look back now and can still feel the desperation. I wanted change in my life but I didn’t want to have to change my life. I didn’t want to have to put in the work, I didn’t want to make Sundays my meal prep day (I still don’t), I didn’t want to be that person on a strict diet, I didn’t want to be the person who had to make hard decisions and say “no” to fun activities or schedule naps into my day.

Because that’s the harsh truth to changing your life–you actually have to change. Others don’t need to change, just you.

When I talk about my healing journey, that’s exactly what it is–a journey. To first check in with myself, figure out how I am feeling and what I need to support myself, then chisel away at how I can start applying different choices to my life. Inevitably, I’d fall off my wagon, feel disappointment in myself and start all over again. It’s exhausting. It’s uncomfortable. It’s annoying. And the progress can seem slow as Hell. But that’s when I find the most support from the land of the woo-woo.

It takes energy healing to get me to realize that part of my stuckness is that I don’t believe in my own worthiness. It takes tarot cards to give me hope and reassurance that different decisions will lead me to where I want to go. It takes crystals to give me courage to face my challenges and lessen my self doubts. It takes akashic records to give me perspective of my ancestral past, and by comparison, to allow me to enjoy all the blessings I currently have. It takes nature and grounding to realize how insignificant my struggles are in comparison to the universe that surrounds me. And it takes learning the skill of meditation to slow down, pause, and be present for the life I am living.

I’m at the point in my life where my new habits still mingle with the old. I still pop pills for a headache and sometimes to fall asleep, but I also take my vitamins in the morning. I fall back on the comfort of my vices when I have “hard days” then challenge myself to take breaks when I feel stronger. I skip yoga classes during the busy summer schedule but find myself prioritizing the recordings because I know showing up for myself always makes me feel better.

Discovering practices that are considered woo-woo has not given me immediate relief to my personal struggles or the answers to my problems. But what it has provided me with is a deeper connection with myself, a shift in my thinking that used to keep me in my old patterns and feeling stuck, and the courage to continue to do hard things. It’s these new woo-woo tools in my life that have given me the energy and strength to continue to do the hard work and bring about change in life by changing myself.

It’s all hard and will continue to be hard because ultimately there’s still a part of me that wishes life was just easy. Three-wishes easy. But as I continue to go on this journey, my wish is also changing. Perhaps it’s not an easy life I wish for but to live a life of ease. Because it’s only when I accomplish hard things that I develop a deeper love for myself and redefine my confidence from the inside out. I would receive neither from a life on easy street. So instead, the skills I develop from facing my personal challenges allows me to live my life authentically since I now know that I have what it takes.

Incorporating woo-woo into my life was a challenge in itself, mainly because trying something new with no proof of it working ran the high risk of dwindling the very limited energy I had in the first place. It was easier to spend my time wishing things were different.

But now, with new unexpected tools incorporated into my life, I don’t need three wishes. The magic isn’t in the woo-woo but the woo-woo gives me the confidence to continue believing in my own magic. This might not make sense to everyone and it hasn’t always made sense to me either but I know that I am shifting into the best version of me… and that is all I can wish for.

With love,

Ming-Cee

dear friend,

“Take the first step in faith. You don’t have to see the whole staircase, just take the first step.” –Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.

Both of us remember how terrified we were to take our first steps and how the fear alone kept us from changing our lives. With time comes reflection and we now look back on what scared us the most and what kept us on autopilot thinking we’d rather maintain the status quo than take our first steps in faith.

There was a time when Ming-Wai felt unfulfilled even though she was receiving praise for her hard work, rewarded with raises and promotions. And Ming-Cee lived a blessed life but was feeling out of control, having emotional reactions to the ones she loved the most, and watching herself become someone she didn’t recognize or like very much.

The façade of having it all while feeling lost on the inside would eventually wear on us. It was exhausting, confusing, and made us feel off and inauthentic. But since we were on autopilot, we didn't know any different. Back then, we didn’t take time to pause, analyze, or change our patterns. We were caught in a spiral of asking ourselves “what is expected of me” before asking ourselves “what do I need in my life” and for a long time, we thought the first question was the same as the second.

Though we may have had a healthy dose of self esteem, we were unconsciously consumed with how others would perceive us. Somewhere down the line, we had stopped doing things for ourselves and started to do things for others. We thrived on external validation and came to see it as our own achievements. It wasn't until many years later when we found ourselves “living the dream” on the outside that we realized we were experiencing it differently on the inside.

It took quieting down our negative reel, checking in with our ego, and finding our why to admit that we weren’t enjoying the lives we were working so hard to create. That gave us the incentive to pause, shift our perspectives, and stop living on autopilot. We were now ready to take our first steps towards the change we wanted to see... and it was terrifying because it wasn’t something we had done before.

It was terrifying to ask ourselves what we needed without anyone else’s input. And it was disappointing to realize that we didn’t know how to answer that question at first.

How had we come so far and yet become so detached from ourselves? We had curated our lives to meet the expectations of our parents, our community, and our culture only to realize at some point that we had achieved someone else’s definition of success. We had forgotten about ourselves along the way. We felt unfulfilled, out of control, and confused because we didn’t trust ourselves anymore. When we asked ourselves what we needed and wanted in our lives, our whispers of intuition and guidance were frequently drowned out by the noise of external expectations.

It didn’t come easy and change didn’t happen overnight, but we are now able to answer the question of what we need… most of the time. Our first steps were to rediscover ourselves, get back in touch with our likes and dislikes, remind ourselves of our passions, and embrace our natural talents. We had to invest time, money, and energy into ourselves to prove that we were worth it.

Though we didn't know at the time and couldn’t see the full staircase, we took those small, terrifying first steps in faith. It brought up uncomfortable emotions, annoyances, and setbacks but we know it was worth the climb even though we didn’t know exactly where it would take us.

Looking back now, we are grateful for the investment it took to rediscover who we really are. We continue step by step into the fear of the unknown because we recognize now what we’re doing for us and what we’re doing for others. We have the privilege to reach our hand back and invite you to come along with us and keep climbing.

Is there something in your life that you deeply desire to change but are fearful to take steps in that direction? Drop a comment below or contact us with your story so we can help you clear the way, get reconnected with yourself, and support your first steps. YOU can do this too.

With love,

Ming-Wai + Ming-Cee

before you walk you have to crawl…

...and before you crawl you have to just lie there.

Sometimes it takes clearing things out of the way before our first steps can even be a possibility. And the thought of having to do work before the work even begins can be overwhelming, discouraging, and depressing.

The transition between awareness and behavioral change can seem daunting to say the least. Sometimes it's the exact thing that keeps us stuck and fearful to begin. In our minds, the clutter and noise can perpetuate our limiting beliefs and drive our habitual patterns leaving little to no room for change.

If you have ever felt stuck and frustrated at yourself for not staying on track when implementing change, perhaps you just need to slow down to explore the deeper understanding of your personal stuckness before taking your first actionable steps.

Tools like walking, meditation, yoga, journaling, and resting give us the pause to quiet the expectations and other noise filling our minds, if only for a few minutes. And it’s in this practice of pausing that we shift from feeling like life is happening TO us to feeling like life is happening FOR us.

The pause in our day is imperative to strengthening the belief in ourselves. It reconnects us to the values that define who we are. But it’s really hard to find that pause in the inertia of our push harder, do more, I’ll sleep when I’m dead culture.

That’s why at ming+ming we make it easier for us to find the time to reconnect with ourselves. We’ve designed our classes to be the scheduled pause in our day to find our breath, rest our eyes, and ease our nervous system allowing us to calm down and ask: What do we need to help ourselves and which step should we take next?

Starting a new routine or any action towards the change we desire takes dedication and motivation. Both are byproducts of first taking the time to slow down and pause.

The truth is that change usually only happens out of necessity. We must want to want to change. New, healthier routines only happen when we enjoy the benefits we obtain from it, naturally keeping us coming back, not because someone else told us it was good for us.

So in order to find the strength from within, we must believe the hard work that comes with change is worth it. We must believe that we are smarter than our problems. We must believe that we have the power to heal ourselves. We must believe that we can do hard things. And we must believe we have the ability to help ourselves.

If you don’t believe this yet about yourself, come join us in class where you can clear the way through deep breaths, lying quietly and reaffirming your beliefs and values. It’s in the tool of the pause that you will find the clarity and confidence in knowing your next step.

Because before you can step, you must learn to crawl and before you crawl, you just need to lie there.

With love,

Ming-Wai + Ming-Cee

Hi, I’m Ming-Wai and I’m coming out of the mystical closet

For most of my life, I thought I knew what I wanted. I accomplished what I set my mind to and I was happy, I was loved, I was grateful. I was living the professional working mom dream on the outside, but something felt off on the inside.

Peeling back all the layers to discover my why was a lot of emotional work. It took years. I put on a cheery face in public but I struggled to delve deep into my soul in private. I felt lost. I didn’t know my purpose in life and it was eating at me from the inside out. I knew that I couldn’t keep pretending that everything was fine until I retired. The thought of 20 more years living this “perfect” life exhausted me. And that’s how I knew I was out of alignment with my why.

I fell off the wagon frequently and convinced myself that I was just overreacting and overthinking things. I fell back on bad habits, like volunteering to work on my days off so someone else wouldn’t have to. Fortunately when I felt unbalanced, I always came back to my tools of yoga, meditation, crystals, tarot, and journaling in order to chisel away the layers of doubt, insecurity, fear, and cultural conditioning.

After all that frustrating work, discovering my purpose and my why in life was less of an “aha” moment and more of a slow shift in perspective. I began to see that my why was connected to my natural talents that permeated through all my accomplishments, but I just didn’t give it much value because it came easy to me. I kept my interests and talents a secret because I had convinced myself that it was weird and I was scared I would be teased.

But it’s time I came out of the mystical closet and fully embraced my why. I am a space holder, I am an energy worker, I am an intuitive coach. I am on this earth to help you dive deeper into yourself and guide you forward with confidence.

I know in my heart that this is my calling, my purpose, my why. It took me a lot of hard work to get here so you would think it’d be easier on the other side.

It’s not. The most difficult part of embracing my why is putting it into practice and living it.

My negative reel is overwhelming when I contemplate doing this as a living. My ego tries to convince me that I need to stay the course society expects of me. My identity is confused as to who I am if I’m not living the life that I update on LinkedIn.

So do I regret all that soul-searching work to discover my why just to be met with more struggles? Absolutely not.

Knowing my why has allowed me to find my foundation. I am in the beginning stages of taking back my self-worth and recognizing the value of my natural gifts. I’m no longer afraid of being teased for being weird. I know I’m weird and that’s why it’s so important that I share my unique talents! There aren’t a lot of people like me and there needs to be more amazing humans unapologetically sharing their God-given talents on this earth.

Because when I found my why, I saw that I was needed everywhere. And when friends, family, and strangers tell me their struggles, their pain, their insecurities, I know I can help them. And that lights me up. It gives me energy. I can feel the divine guidance shining through me affirming what I’m here on earth to do.

I’m finally ready to step into my why and share my gifts. I will be offering 1-on-1 sessions using tarot, akashic record readings, and reiki to help you get a deeper understanding of your personal problems that keep you feeling stuck. Sign up for my waitlist if you're interested in working with me and we'll be in touch.

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With love,

Ming-Wai

step three: your why

Change is hard. And sometimes, it’s incredibly fucking hard. There are times we want to give up, and sometimes we do. We call this falling off the wagon and it’s a critical part to our healing journey. Because it’s only when our discomforts become too loud to ignore that we are forced to think about why we want to change in the first place.

Usually when life gets uncomfortable, our reaction is to immediately try to “fix” how we feel. We binge watch, we scroll, we shop, we throw ourselves into our work, we distract ourselves from our feelings one way or another. This makes us feel better for a while, but it doesn’t last.

Our why is that honest, true answer that is deep within us and it’s what gets us back on track. It’s our north star when we get distracted. Our why gives us the courage and stamina to face the problem, conflict, or stuckness head-on because it’s the only way to achieve our goals without bringing along the emotional baggage. It’s uncomfortable, it’s frustrating, and no one wants to do it. This is why they call it “doing the work.”

The hardest of all the work comes in the beginning. When we are first challenging our habitual thought processes, our ingrained beliefs, and our life-long habits. Sometimes we find ourselves longing for things to be easier, but we know in our hearts that the real life-changing moments happen after a battle well fought.

There’s much to battle within ourselves - cultural expectations, feelings of unworthiness, guilt, the list never ends. The hard work is shifting our perspective so we can invest the time, money, and energy to work through our stuckness, insecurities, and weaknesses. Our strength comes from knowing that the hard work will be uncomfortable until we do it enough times that we feel comfortable with the uncomfortable.

As we continue to choose to do our own work, we become more skillful in sitting with the discomfort, not reacting, and not rushing to fix how we feel. We pause, prioritize our needs, implement our tools, and show up to class because we are essentially training ourselves to better understand our emotions, address our mental health, and to be intentional with our reactions so we may live with more ease and less regrets.

Understanding our why is our motivation for showing up for ourselves, especially when we’d rather just check out. We are all ebbing and flowing between our old familiar selves and who we are slowly working to become as we push forward and continue doing the hard work. When we lose focus and our comfy old habits suggest we stay awhile, we go back to why we took the terrifying leap of faith to change in the first place.

As we continue down this difficult path, we remember to honor ourselves when we need a break, give ourselves grace when we fall off the wagon, and even enjoy our indulgences once in a while because all of this can be so damn hard.

We encourage you to go on this courageous journey with us. Our platform provides tools, encouragement, and systematic solutions to the challenges we will inevitably encounter along the way. Yes this is hard and yes you have what it takes. We are here to support you and give you the space you need to reaffirm your why so you can keep moving forward with confidence.

With love,

Ming-Wai + Ming-Cee

ego + identity practice of ho'oponopono

This Hawaiinan forgiveness ritual is deceivingly simple. When I bought the book, it was shorter than I expected and I thought "this is it?" But then I started practicing it and it forced me to acknowledge that I was holding onto grudges because I felt that I was right and they were wrong. And I realized that this was my ego. My ego was protecting my feelings by justifying my thoughts, words, and actions.

The practice is four statements:

I'm sorry.

Please forgive me.

Thank you.

I love you.

When I first started the practice, I picked an "easy" subject to test out since I thought I had gotten over it many years ago - my ex-boyfriends! I held my first test subject in my mind and said the magic words and my reaction was something like "I'm sorry you were such a jerk, I don't need your stinkin' forgiveness to move on, thank you for teaching me who I didn't want to be with, and I love my life without you."

Wow, okay. I didn't realize I was still holding onto relationships that had ended over a decade ago. I was really surprised!

So I worked through the practice when I could fit it in, which was commuting on the metro to and from work. It softly guided me to what I was still holding onto (the hurt and the betrayal) and it allowed me to recognize that there were "wrongs" committed on both sides that I was sorry for them. And when I asked for forgiveness, I was also forgiving them. And when I said thank you, I was giving gratitude for the experience of personal growth. And when I said I love you, it was also acknowledging that I love myself... all sides of myself... not just the self that my ego wants others to see.

This website has a good article that summarizes this beautiful practice. I hope Ho'oponopono will help you let go of emotions that your ego justifies holding onto so that you can move forward with more ease and love for your whole self.

With love,

Ming-Wai

ego + identity video on understanding yourself

Mark Manson: 5 Levels of Understanding Yourself

Feb. 16, 2022

Understanding the ego + identity is complex and has been difficult for me to grasp and fully understand. This is probably why I come back to step two often when feeling imbalanced. This was a quick video that helped me start to understand the definition of self better. It’s a good place to start if you are just starting step two…or if you’re like me and find yourself back at step two when trying to get back on the wagon.

With love,

Ming-Cee

ego + identity book on following your creative spark

This book was inspiring on so many levels. In each chapter, it's like she was talking to my inner child and inviting me to share my unique gifts with the world by listening to the whispers of my intuition. This helped me identify that little spark in me that I had long forgotten (or, more accurately, left for dead when I decided to "be an adult")

One of the biggest takeaways for me was just making time to do little things for the sheer joy of it... with no expectations of placing first in a competition, creating a business around it, or getting likes on social media. Finding that inner spark and doing things just because it makes me feel good is the practice I need to flex my ego vs. identity muscle. I know I've crossed into doing things for my ego when I crave the external validation of my decisions instead of just being content with the warm glow of not giving a f*ck what anyone thinks.

With love,

Ming-Wai

ego + identity podcast on external validation

ON Purpose with Jay Shetty: 4 Reasons We Crave External Validation and 3 Ways to Feel Truly Seen Heard, and Understood

March 12, 2021

This podcast episode is a particular tool that I come back to time and time again. It’s also a tool that both of us use and it’s the tool we share with our clients that sign up for the 3-month ming+ming signature coaching session. We developed ming+ming's value-based decision making off of this podcast. I personally use this tool when I feel off and or when I lose touch with myself. I also use it when I need to dive deeper into my “why” and it helps me refocus my efforts. I also come back to this tool when I feel overwhelmed and I need guidance on my everyday decisions.

With love,

Ming-Cee

Hi, I’m Ming-Cee and I follow the vanity matrix

I wish I didn’t care about looks as much as I do. But the truth is, I do.

If someone is attractive, lives in a nice home, and drives a fancy car, I automatically put them in the category: How nice it must be to have it all.

I prioritize my spending on clothes and furnishings for my house, then stress over how I’m going to afford paying for chiropractic appointments, alternative healing solutions, vitamins, and my kids’ extra curricular activities.

I feel the whiplash that comes with all the dopamine hits I get with online shopping, then the anxiety I feel when I look into how much a home mold inspection will cost.

I have yet to fully embrace and accept change in this aspect of my life. It’s hard to let go of. I even admitted to our meditation group the other week: “of course I know what I’m going to wear to my high school reunion because when I feel bad on the inside, I know how to look good on the outside.” I’m aware that I’m stuck in between awareness and behavioral changes.

Part of me is still trying to to change just enough to feel better so I can still maintain my vices without consequence. I’m fully aware that old habits and programmed ways of thinking are keeping me stuck. I've experienced enough change to know the hard work is worth it, and yet, a part of me still fights against it like a child who’s only focused on things “not being fair.”

Walking the fine line between understanding my ego + identity has been confusing. I genuinely love fashion and interior design. I also know that shopping is my vice. If you want to know how imbalanced I’m feeling, just count the packages at my front door.

As I do the hard work to better understand myself, I’ve discovered that I prioritize looking good over feeling good because my ego has taken over. Truthfully, it’s been running the show most of my life. My ego perpetuates these old habits by enhancing the fear that my insecurities will be exposed. Exterior validation only adds false security and justifies my shopping addiction.

I also have discovered that this journey to go inside is complicated because I am complicated. I love dressing up, trying new looks, being bold and expressing the many different layers that make up who I am. I love the space that I have created for myself and my family. I enjoy being surrounded by the pretty things I own.

It’s when the newness of the clothes and trinkets wear off that I find myself unsatisfied once again questioning my lack of discipline and self control. My negative reel quickly pops in and life seems to get noisy all at once again. This is when I need the pause the most. When I need to reach for my healing tools instead of my credit card.

It’s in the pause or the break in my inertia that gives me the space to understand myself better. To realize that I have been conditioned to care about materialistic things based on where and how I grew up. These superficial ideals continue to be supported in my daily life and in the noise of societal pressures. Understanding why I’m this way gives me the ability to be less harsh on myself and accept all parts of me.

I am now in a better place where I can embrace the fact that it’s a continual process to discover my balance between my ego + identity. I also embrace the fact that the questions of why I feel a certain way will have a complicated answer because I am a unique and complicated individual.

I am no longer afraid that my façade will be exposed and I accept that there is nothing wrong with me, I have just found my work. There will still be days that I shop, even when I say I don’t want to. I try to give myself some grace and understanding that part of my identity is how I express my creativity through clothes and decorating.

I have also journeyed far enough and have found my tools so when my ego speaks up and my shopping cart is full, I am able to ask myself: who am I performing for? Why do I care so much about what other people think? And, most importantly, how do I feel about myself?

The answers to these questions are uncomfortable, deep-rooted and unflattering but they are also freeing. The fear of my weaknesses being exposed starts to dissipate and the courage to continue addressing my insecurities grows allowing me to be more connected to who I really am. This is what gets me closer to understanding the balance between my ego + identity, and is the catalyst for sustainable change in my life.

As I get older, the vanity matrix still applies but now I am able to find a deeper understanding of the many identities that make up who I am. I have gained more control to know when to let my ego take center stage because I’m becoming more comfortable with my entire self.